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r''''''''''''''''sworld,beingaburdelikeIwaslosingmyself.The''''''''''''''''Siyuan''''''''''''''''shecreatedwasreadyforShanghai,butViktor…Viktorwasnot."

    「但我从未这麽做，」他继续说，声音里充满了疲惫，「距离…会改变人。它会将微小的裂痕放大成峡谷。我们的通话，变得越来越少关於我们，而更多的是…现实层面的问题。关於我的研究是多麽不切实际，关於我与瑞典、与我外婆的世界的连结是个负担。我感觉我正在失去自己。她所创造的那个思远已经准备好去上海了，但是Viktor…Viktor还没有。」

    "Thatphonecallyouheard…"Viktor''''''''''''''''sjawtightenedslightly."Itwasnotthefirst''''''''''''''''it''''''''''''''''sover''''''''''''''''call.Itwasoneofmanyechoes.Thepainful,finalnotesofasongthatendedmorethanayearago.Everyfewmonths,somethingesup-asharedacademicpaper,apossessiobehind,aque